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Well I have been home and the surgery went well. im alive lol. Holly is staying a couple days with pawpaw so I can heal a little more but she'll be home Saturday. I miss her alot already. so guess that means no more talk about babies for a bit. don't get me wrong I'm not upset anymore. I understand things happen for a reason, some people would say karma for some of the immature crap ive done in my life. GOd is there for me. I know everyone thinks I'm nuts mentioning God but I have learned and felt Gods love and I think that the Devil has tried to bring me away from my new faith but it wont happen. DOnt worry friends IM NOT GONNA GOD YOU TO DEATH. I just have new thoughts and Ill still be me dont worry but what ill do will be done maturly and more thought out. im still the punky goth chick ever one knows and love so dont panic.

Peace out
bunny

I didnt see any jokes today.

But, today I went to the doctor and they did an ultra sound and found out there was nothing in the sac. So no baby and no thats not an Apirl Fools joke.

So tomorrow I will be having surgery at 8:30 at Kennestone Hospital.

Pray for me!

I will be doing Casting Calls for my ideas for photography.... right now I am looking for Goth Girls that are fit and are comfortabl  in bikinis in photos.

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Michelle

First off I start by saying that would suck royally.
I would miss my child and husband, my camera, and my friends(i do have a few)
I dont have much freedom now so that wouldnt be much different. My child isnt bad and she doesnt crowd my freedom but my husband kind of does. My kid is pretty great about going places with me and helping with photoshoots, sometimes she gets frustrated and throws fits but shes three so I dont expect her to be any different. My husband yells and moans and groans if I go any where, he doesnt even like people over, so I pretty much try not to go anywhere for the sake of not hearing him bitch. But I cant say I blame him to much because he works alot and takes care of me and Holly and he doesnt get out much so hes jealous when I do. I sort of make him out to be worse than he really is.
Hes a good povider, and he love Holly with all his heart. And when I trully want something he gets it for me. Im in a way spoiled. We have been together for 6 years.  3 married 3 not. So we have been together for a long time. We know each others stregths and weaknesses. But then again I dont think we really really know each other. His birthday is coming up April 10th, and I still dont know what to get him. I never know what to get him, hes the hardest person to buy for. And he works more than we get to talk anymore. Even when he didnt have a night job, he played video games. We just dont talk much anymore. Im pregnant and we dont talk. Thats not healthy. Before stephen had lost his other night job, we wanted another baby, so we tried for a month and then as soon as I found out I was pregnant, he lost his job. Ever since that hes been rather negative. So like the title its been like prison here trying not to step on his toes.

Dont get me wrong,
I love him with all my heart, and I want to be with him for 60 more years. I just hope we can start communicating more. I hope I can find a job that will let me be more creative, and help pay for things. I have the church but I know Stephen wnts me to do more.

I just found out at the beginning of this month that I am pregnant. I am going to have a baby! They questamated my due date as being in November 15th. Totally awesome. Holly-marie is going to be a big sister before she is four.

Even though it is early stephen and I have been throwing out names we like and dont like. Holly-marie has got some imput but the names are silly. Like she said "Pladoe" you know like the clay stuff, lol. And the one she said we liked was Light. But we arent using it.

I like Edwin-Scott Lee Welch for a boy
and Leslie Alynn Welch for a girl.

Stephen Likes "Bailey" but seriously I hate that name with a reason.

But he also likes
Scottie Lee Welch.

I dont think I like Scottie for a real name maybe a nickname.
I have my first doctors appointment Apirl 1st. It was March 24th but for some reason there was a mix up in the office. So I had to reschedule which by the way pissed me off alot and I kind of made a show on how dissappointed I was. But I tend to do that when I am super excited about something and it gets changed on me.

Holly runs around saying shes gonna be a big big sister! Its super cute.


 


And for those who dont know, I am hopeing for a boy.

Well
Two nights ago my daughter tripped and fell on a bed post and busted her eye. We went to the doctor they said it was just ugly nothing was wrong that we needed the hospital for! So thats good!

Today just so happens to the little Monkeys birthday!

Here are some pictures because I know some of you havent seen Holly-marie since she was born!





Isnt she cute!

bad thoughts.

Im serious I come up with the most random shit when I am bored. So today I was thinking of things that were very perverted but was related to nerdy things.

The first thing that poped into my head was "You can stick your hard drive into my motherboared anytime." I think I have lost it people. I am coming up with nerd pick up lines! Seriously help me, some one give me something to do! Its these walls! Its these god forsaken walls!!!!!!

Anyway back to sanety for a little while.

I asked Mrs. Cindy about going to school to be a priest in the ministry and I will taken classes in the fall for $40 bucks about the bible. My goal, since the photography seems to be only a hobby, is to be a Minister to teens and children! Sounds great right! Me and my crazy self! I am a bit weird but when I am at work at the church I feel calm and happy.

Mrs. Cindy also asked me to be counsler at two camps this coming summer.
1.Drama Camp
2.Mission Possible were even gonna do lazer tag! Woot!

These are going to be fun. You should see how these kids look up to me I feel loved.

Family life is another story. I got tierd of telling Holly to clean her room she refused so I took everything way and put them in bags. When she behaves she gets one thing back a week. So far its working.

My husband still doesnt understand me much, I think he thinks I am cheating on him, but Im not. I have friends I talk to but nope no cheating. Its kind of cute that he wants to make sure no one steals me away! lol he cracks me up..

Hollys birthday is in 2 and 1/2 days. She'll be 3 years old. I cant believe my baby is getting so big! She starts softball in a month and I start couching her team too!

I need more people to take pictures of guys! So call me! 4042266477

Ive decided since no one really cares about my life that Ill just type it out on here where no one really sees.

I am not a person who complains to the masses. Yes I whine, and bitch but I trully dont let my insides out much. I seriously dont know what to do with myself. I am a stay at home mother who has no idea how to handle it. Im not a good cleaner. My child has a bad mouth and talks back worse than I have evenr seen any child do. She wont sleep. I have a husband who works , work, works, and works. I never see him. When I do get alone time we either fight or have aweful sex which would be great if I wasnt depressed. I want to be a good mother, housekeeper, and wife but I cant. Nothing I seem to do is good enough.
I want to do photography all the time. I want to take pictures of everything. I want to get paid for it. I cant do this free shit anymore. I need a magazine job, or something where my talent is useful. I feel useless. Absolutly useless. My husband hates me and thanks Im lazy, my daughter talks back and will not do what I say (at all), I have no one to talk to that understands because they all want to tell me to shut up and stop whining. I dont want to ruin my child or husbands life if theres something better for them. No I am not going to kill myself, but I hurt so much. I am in constant pain. I have gone to the doctor but they say nothings wrong. There must be something. I cant keep a job, Im just fucking useless!!!

My brother visited me for tis thanksgiving week.

I have started drawing my character Trish again...

God all I want to do is be able to go out, have someone watch my child, be able to drink, and come home and sleep til 10.

But no!!!!

I get home at 3 she wakes up at 5 and no one but me will wake up for her. Fucking stephen's being a dick, and she wont go back to bed. And it's 6:42 right now, holy fucking shit. I hate being a parent sometimes. This just means I can't do anything anymore. I have to give up any social ness on weekends til I am an old fart. It really makes me want to cry. I haven't been to sleep at all yet. And Ive been having insomnia bad lately. So tonight when I was trying to sleep I keep seeing like blue flashy lights and strob light going off.!!! What the fuck!!!

Ug..well since I have nothing to do but wait til she get's tierd again, I ll just rant some more.

Actually I met a really cool girl last night and we hit it off good. We liked alot of the same shit, and my husband made friends with her husband, so it's real cool like that. We sat outside the pool hall for a little while and listened to music and watching music video's. And talked about crap that we have in common. She likes my artwork and ya tonight was great intil of corse when I get home.


Well it's now 909 and Im still awake 23 hole hours of no sleep!!! And stephen has been snoring his brains out and when I tell him to get up " I haven't got any sleep wahh! This makes me hate him so much.

A long time ago when I was younger some things were done to me to make me a very angery person. One of my stepfathers beat me and molested me. My mother beat me, my father was always gone. And then I was moved around house to house to house . I never went to the same school once. All these things made me feel not wanted. The only thing I have seen is people giving up and walking out. So when I get angery and I think talking wont do any good I walk out. I give up, because thats all I know.

Well lets say real recently, I decided I couldn't take haveing so many people around me because I am not use to love, so I got scared and fed up of not being alone at all, so I handed stephen the baby and just walked out. I dont drive so I walked and walked . Stephen had let his mother watch Holly and came and picked me up on the side of the road. I just wanted to be a alone for a while and they thought I was leaving which wasn't true. I just wanted to be alone. Well when I got back home stephen and I talked and sorted things, I thought.

Well now even when I am barely mad stephen says there goes your temper again which makes me madder and then he'll say something to provoke it and Ill get even more angry. I'll say "Im trying but your not making this easy and you'r provokeing my agner." and then he'll say I am not provokeing you, which will make me even madder then he'll say maybe you should go to counsling which makes me even madder and then Im right back where I started. I don't know what to do .

I love them and sailormoon rocks!

Once again I colored my hair!





Purple bitches!

Courtesy of Robyn M. Folks

...FEATURE FILM!

Just spotted this on Craigslist.com. Go get'em, freaks!

Casting Director in Atlanta is seeking unique and strange looking people to be paid extras in a major feature film shooting in Atlanta Wednesday June 14th and 15th. We are looking people with mulitple piercings and tattooes, as well as goth looks, punk rockers , S and M, and just a general mix of very unique and as well as stylish looking people. All extras would be paid! Please submit a recent photo as soon as possible to:

ExtrasCastingAtlanta@gmail.com

Sunday is my wedding and I got my hair done. It kicks ass!

Performed by : Lady Crystala
For : Michelle and Stephen
On : June 11th, 2006
at: 2:00 pm
after: Dinner at china buffet, it's an all you can eat place....
If you want to come RSVP: 4042264635(Stepehen's) or 4042266477(Mine)

We got a photographer yay! Thanks for calling Elvis!

Bunny

[quote] LAWRENCEVILLE — The “Harry Potter” book series may soon be taken off the shelves of all media centers in Gwinnett County Public Schools if a parent’s appeal is successful.
A parent of students at J.C. Magill Elementary School filed appeal forms for each of the books, requesting the wildly popular series be removed from public school libraries.
On the forms, she wrote that she objected to the series’ “evil themes, witchcraft, demonic activity, murder, evil blood sacrifice, spells and teaching children all of this.”
She wrote she had not read the series because it is long, and she is a working mother of four.
A public hearing will be held on the matter at 2 p.m. Thursday, in accordance with the Gwinnett County Board of Education’s policies for “Instructional Materials Selection.” An appointed hearing officer will hear testimony from the parent, school system officials and concerned residents.
Both the local school and system media committees have recommended the books remain on the shelves.
Based on all the testimony, the hearing officer will prepare findings and recommendations to the Board of Education. The final decision will be made by the school board within a few weeks of the hearing.
Any Gwinnett County resident who wishes to speak at the hearing will be able to do so by submitting a written request. Requests may be mailed to the Superintendent’s Office, Gwinnett County Public Schools, 437 Old Peachtree Road N.W, Suwanee, GA 30024, or may be faxed to 678-301-6030. All written requests must be submitted no later than 48 hours before the hearing. [quote]


If a middle schooler really thinks I am going to believe that a book about three children's adventures lead her to witchcraft, then I am the president of the USA. It's like saying that the scary monsters in movies and television are real, and they are going to get you if you dont eat your greenbeans. This article hit me hard because there is really no such thing as in the witchcraft from those books. I am a pagan citizen. Wiccan is the term and it is based on peace and love of nature. If this child is really believed then this state is damn gullible. This is some bible humping christian's(no affence to good openminded christians) harebrained scheme to ban books that question there precious bible. They have no right to question great literature for children. Well thats my two cents.
Thankyou for reading just had to get that off my chest.
Michelle smith from marietta georgia 20 female

This is what I wrote to the fuckers.